Speaking of fame and life in the eyes of the public, Lady Gaga said, "In many ways, I feel that I have lost everything."

Lady Gaga reviewed a particularly daunting audition.

The 35-year-old Gucci star admitted to The Hollywood Reporter that when she started to become a young actress, she did not always perform well in auditions.

In fact, she said, "My audition was terrible. I was terrible. I could never get a role. I was just stunned."

Gaga recalled making a callback for the LensCrafters ad. She didn't log in because she froze during this period: "I'll stand there and say,'Oh my God. Ah! You have to make this perfect. Me. I'm not proud of being my father."

Fast forward to today, the pop star won an Oscar (Best Original Song Award) and a Best Actress nomination after starring in the 2018 "Birth of a Star", and won a gold medal for appearing in the TV series "American Horror Story" Ball prize.

The "Rain on Me" singer told THR about the difficult trade-offs that come with fame and notoriety.

"When I decided to pursue my career the way I am now, I made a deal," she said. "I don't know what that deal will be, but it happened. In many ways, I feel I have lost everything."

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For her latest role in Ridley Scott's Gucci, she played Patrizia Reggiani, acting for the fashion company Maurizio Gucci (Maurizio Gucci) The reality trauma experienced by the heir’s wife before finally killing him.

"When [Patrizia] fell apart, I fell apart. When I said I didn't destroy the character, some of it was not voluntary," Gaga said. "When I was a little girl, I endured the pain of being attacked, left behind by my loved ones, and trapped in the world that I could not enter the world I loved. I endured that pain, I gave it to her...I devoted my whole life to her." 

Scott told THR that after seeing Gaga in "The Birth of a Star", he wanted Gaga to play this role.

"At this moment, there is only one person in my sight who can have this very straightforward woman. I found [Lady Gaga] very approachable, frankly, very interesting. She is very smart, and very, very insightful. In the first After the first meeting, I knew she was indispensable to do this part. She had to. And, of course, because of her recent success [at the birth of a star], it made it easier for us to get there and get the right budget." 

House of Gucci will be released on November 24.